Thursday, January 5, 2012

I Lost My Mind and Found My Spirit

My brain has been ravaged by multiple sclerosis for the majority of my adult life, so long in fact that the damage is causing my brain to literally collapse in on itself.  Doctors call it cerebral atrophy.   The day I found out, I was devastated, but not entirely surprised.  For months I had noticed that my cognitive abilities were declining and that I was having increasing word search issues when talking to people.  My memory, which used to be pretty sharp, had been rapidly deteriorating.   I needn't disclose the details about how this has impacted my life, because I believe you can easily imagine, and because my focus is not on how difficult it is to live with a shrinking brain, but rather how God has been so faithful  in His care for me.  It is also about trying to make sense of the promise that He makes to us that by His stripes we are healed.  And finally, it answers the question I have been asking myself since the MS took a rapid turn for the worse.  "Lord, how on earth can I ever be of service to You?" The following Scriptures I plan to discuss over the upcoming days. Hebrews 13:5-6 Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said "Never  will I leave you; never will I forsake you." So we say in confidence, "The lord is my helper; I will not be afraid.  What can man do to me?" Isaiah 53:5  But He was pierced for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon Him, and by His wounds we are healed.   John 4:24 God is spirit, and His worshippers must worship in spirit and in truth.    

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